Ouija's Wrath

I had been thinking about this for years.

The thought was always there in the back of my head, but it was a fleeting idea, never a reality. Only an idea.

I sat in the classroom silently staring at the wall while the teacher droned on and on about something I can't even remember now.

My mind started to wander, thinking about all those thoughts that were always there at the back of my mind. I couldn't let them go. There was so much I wanted to know, and so many questions that needed to be answered, but nobody could help me with any of them. That's what drove me crazy. All these things that I knew existed and nobody had a clue about them. It made me feel like such an outsider most of the time, and sometimes I just wanted to scream for help, begging for somebody to give me answers. But I knew nobody could help me. Nobody else could possibly understand what it felt like to know things that no one else knows, or cares to know for that matter.

They say that knowledge is power, but in my life knowledge has only brought me more pain than anything else. The more you learn and understand, the more you realize how small your world really is. The more you realize how insignificant your existence is in this giant universe. At least that's what they've taught us in school. They tell us all these things we should be happy about, like how lucky we are to have been born on such a beautiful planet full of resources, like how lucky we are to have clean water and food every day without ever having to work hard for it, like how lucky we are never having to go hungry because there's always enough food for everyone every single day on earth through some miraculous feat that nobody can explain or understand but somehow our society has figured out how to do it? And they act all happy and grateful when they say it, as if they actually believe it too! As if they haven't noticed all the problems in the world around them, or worse yet, don't want to talk about them because it would mean having to face their own insignificance again! They keep telling us over and over again how lucky we are instead of teaching us about the world around us!

But even with all those bad things happening all around us here on earth, nobody seems to notice or care about them until it starts affecting their own lives directly! And then suddenly everybody gets up in arms demanding change! And demanding answers from their leaders as if somehow those people are supposed to know what's going wrong! As if somehow they have access to information those of us who suffer through poverty every day don't have! What gives them the right to make decisions for us? Are they better than us? Do they deserve more than us? Or maybe their lives aren't so perfect either?! Do they really understand what life is like for those of us who live on streets or underground? Do they really see our pain and suffering? Do they really know what it's like being a child who feels as if their very existence doesn't matter because no one cares when they get beat up by other kids? Do they know what it feels like when you walk into a classroom and you're ignored by your peers? Or worse yet, when you're mocked by your peers because you don't have enough money for clothes from the same store as everyone else does? Do they know how embarrassed we feel? How ashamed we are of our parents when their friends start talking about fancy cars and expensive vacations when ours can barely afford to feed themselves? How humiliated we feel knowing that our friends' parents will bail them out whenever something goes wrong while ours won't even call back after telling us not to expect any phone calls from home because "they're busy working"?! Do these leaders understand how hard it is living day by day with nothing but your wits and strength just trying not to die without having eaten anything in days?! You'd think people like Bill Gates or Mark Zukerberg could empathize with people like us since they were born into rich families too! But nope! They don't seem interested in our struggle at all! They seem more interested in helping humans survive off planet once they finally figure out how while ignorant people like me still have no fucking clue where our next meal will come from tomorrow night!

I tried not letting these thoughts consume me anymore than I already let them consume me every day but sometimes I just couldn't stop myself from thinking about all these horrible things happening around me every day. So many innocent kids getting killed just for being poor or homeless. How many would I save if I had the power? How many would die before I finally found a way out of this hellhole? Just how long would the human race last if none of these intelligent people saw fit to do something while thinking humanity would go extinct before they got around doing anything meaningful? Maybe ignorance really is bliss after all...

Then I thought about my own family again... My mom... She died years ago before she ever had a chance at seeing her dream come true... A dream she had been fighting for her whole entire life... A dream she never told anyone about except for me... A dream she kept alive inside her heart until she died... A dream that inspired her son into action... A dream that motivated him into finally doing something he had always wanted but couldn't bring himself to do alone... A dream that gave him hope again after losing his mother... A dream he finally turned into reality thanks mostly due to his only friend who believed in him even though he didn't show it very often... A friend who stood by his side no matter what happened between them on the way there... A friend who helped him find new friends too after losing his old ones along the way... A friend he liked too much but didn't know whether or not he loved him back during high school... Friends who helped each other discover new things together while making new friends later on as well along the way... Together they fought against bullies together while uniting with others against apathy towards social issues close to their hearts... Friends who supported each other through personal losses along the way realizing there was nothing between them anymore except a friendship closer than most other friendships ever could get... Friends who grew together while growing apart together as well eventually realizing their friendship was stronger than any romantic relationship could ever be between men after high school ended leaving behind so many unanswered questions never meant to be answered just as countless others throughout history were left unanswered forever leaving behind generations of questions forever unanswered after each generation passed on knowledge wrongly assuming everything required no further exploration... Friends united by a common goal once goals took form with dreams bigger than either understood alone taking shape once challenges overcame challenges forcing them forward until finally reaching their final destination achieving both success and failure simultaneously once challenges were faced head-on together with smiles making way for tears and tears making way for smiles alike once memories were made never forgotten nor separated from one another forever more tied together now by experiences past shared where only memories remain within reach reminding each other why they're still here today and why pursuing dreams even bigger today than ever before will lead nowhere without remembering lessons learned yesterday which still apply today much like patterns repeat themselves shaping each other's lives forevermore inspiring both equally helping each other find new ways forward where sacrifices must be made pushing forward today where others fear moving forward towards success understanding failures must be overcome towards success achieving goals set forth today tomorrow beyond tomorrow creating pasts shaping presents shaping futures forming memories held close forevermore meaning everything defining everything entwining hearts creating bonds eternal unbreakable strong enough repeating itself again and again binding two souls together creating love impossible broken impossible uncut growing stronger together forevermore infinite boundless infinite limitless eternal infinity unconditional infinite unconditional