Family Beats: The Boys in the Band.

I'm not that guy

The one who wants to play games. The one who thinks he's the man. The one who thinks he can have it all. The one who thinks he can have everything. Or at least try to have everything. I am not that guy.

And there are things that I want so bad and I'll do anything for them, but I don't think I'm a bad person for wanting them. And there are things that I'm willing to do whatever it takes to get them, but it isn't worth doing if it means hurting people. But I'm not going to hurt people because I want those things.

I love Tiffany. We've been together since college and we've been married for 4 years now. She is an incredible woman and an incredible mother, and she is better than me in every way imaginable. She is smart and funny and beautiful and caring and loving, and she is the best thing in my life; the best thing ever to happen to me since the first time we met on campus freshman year of college. There isn't a day where I don't feel grateful to be her husband, father to our daughter Eliza, and best friend for her. She is my world and she deserves the world because she has given me the world with her from the day she gave birth to our daughter 4 years ago today.

She had morning sickness for months before her due date when we found out that she was pregnant, but after a few months of feeling awful, she just kind of got over it overnight and was fine the next day. She said it was a little odd how suddenly after feeling sick all day long, she felt completely fine again like nothing ever happened. She had no morning sickness at all with Eliza either, but Eliza came about 7 months later than our first child was supposed to come, which sort of worried everyone around us when Tiffany wasn't showing at 8 months pregnant anymore after being pregnant for almost 2 years! We were both nervous about having another baby so late in life (our first was planned), but thank God everything went well with Eliza because we both couldn't imagine living without her now!

That's why this New Kid on the Block tour kicks off so soon after Eliza's birthday, though, because this is a big deal for Jon as well as for me too! This tour could be important for Jon's career as a director since he has finally moved on from making music videos to TV shows! When we met in college, he was studying film directing because he loved making music videos as much as he loved making movies or even more than making movies! And while music videos were great because they were shorter projects that were easier to fulfill his passion for film making without having to wait too long between projects like movies or TV shows often required him to do, they weren't exactly paying his bills! So when his company started getting more offers from TV networks to direct TV shows instead of music videos, Jon decided that breaking away from his old company would be good for him too! He didn't want to be taking jobs from his friends anymore anyway, so when a new company called Inevitable Presents offered Jon an exclusive contract as their director of choice for their TV show slate, he jumped on board despite being offered less money by them than his old production company was offering him! That meant leaving some of his friends behind though and taking this tour with New Kid On The Block would mean missing Eliza's birthday entirely! But hopefully, if this show goes well, Jon will get more work from Inevitable Presents down the road, so he doesn't have to miss any more birthdays with her!

It also means missing Tiffany's birthday though, which sucks... but hopefully, this job will pay off eventually so we can start a family again someday! We really want another child since we're running out of time with both of us getting older... It'll be hard though if Jon makes it big with Inevitable Presents because then I'll probably have a hard time convincing him that we should slow down again when it comes time for us to start trying... But hopefully this isn't our last child because it would suck if it was...

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I never want Tiffany or Eliza or anyone else close to me in my life to suffer if it means me getting something good in return... But sometimes my wants are more important than their needs... I don't think there's anything wrong with saying that either because everyone knows what they want more than anything else in their life whether they admit it or not... They just might need someone there telling them what they need more than what they want sometimes too! And even though sometimes I might not listen to those people telling me what I need more than what I want sometimes too, those people are always there reminding me if only with their absence when I don't listen... But once those people are gone though