Embracing the Contradiction: Cliff's Journey to Self-Acceptance

I had spent all day trying to be as discrete as possible about my wearing of the diaper. I was now at the mall and it was getting close to a few hours since my last diaper change. At first, it wasn't so bad, but the thickness of jeans began to make the diaper dig into me more and more. I started to feel a little warm, and found myself needing to pee pretty bad.

I ignored it for as long as I could. I bought some new shoes and a shirt, but I just couldn't hold it anymore. With no bathrooms in sight, I went into an empty store and quickly tried to get my jeans off so that I could pee in the dressing room. The button on my jeans were stuck, though, so I decided that I would have to pull down my pants without taking the button off.

As soon as my pants were around my ankles, they fell down further than expected and ended up around my knees. Luckily, no one was around to see this, but that didn't stop me from feeling embarrassed. As soon as my pants were around my ankles, though, I felt the urge to pee become stronger than ever before. It felt like there was a small river flowing through me at a very high pressure, and there was nothing I could do to stop it. The feeling continued for only a few seconds before suddenly becoming more intense.

"Ooohh!" My moan echoed through out the store as a gush of hot liquid poured through me in a quick stream. As soon as it started flowing out of me though, it stopped abruptly without warning leaving me with an uncomfortable amount of pressure in me. This pressure didn't last long though before slowly starting back up again. My next moan was much louder than the first one as another stream flowed through me with even more force than the last time. Again, this stream continued for only a few seconds before stopping just as abruptly as before. Unsurprisingly though, not even a second later did it start back up again with even more force than both previous streams combined!

The feeling of peeing through your diaper is indescribable...it's almost like you're being tickled from inside your body all at once! Suddenly again though, everything stopped for about two seconds before resuming back up again! This time though, it didn't stop after only two seconds like before; no this time it never stopped until every last drop of pee had flowed through me!!

I stood there panting with my eyes closed while trying to catch my breath when suddenly something made me open them again: A very wet sensation on the front of my diaper that spread quickly throughout its entire surface area! When I opened my eyes in surprise at what had happened and looked down at myself, I noticed that there was now a sizeable puddle underneath me! The realization that I had peed myself hit me like a brick wall! But...how? The feeling of peeing through my diaper had felt almost natural and normal like nothing else in the world ever had! How could something like this have just happened!?

After standing there dumbfounded by what had happened for several minutes (or maybe even just seconds) trying to figure out how any of this could have happened or why it did happen; suddenly another wave hit me harder than any other wave has ever hit anyone else for any reason: My stomach hurt far worse than anything imaginable! It felt like someone had punched me in the gut ten times over! There was only one thing left for me to do: Scream out loudly while running away from where ever this pain originated from!!!