Polyamorous Passions: A League's Journey

You know what they say, love is love.

And I’m starting to see why there are so many songs about it.

You want to feel something like this, but you’re afraid of the consequences. You want to let go and not think about how wrong it is.

I can’t tell if I’ve fallen for one or all of them, but I don’t care right now. It feels nice.

I can feel their hands on my skin and their bodies pressed against me and God it’s amazing.

But then something in my head makes me pause. It wasn’t intentional, but I pulled away from them all and sat up straight in bed.

Ashe was on my left, with her face buried in the crook of my neck, her arm wrapped around me tightly. To my right was Vi, her hand resting gently on my thigh as she lay on her stomach beside me. Ahri was behind me and had her arms wrapped around me and rested her chin atop my head, staring at the two girls who were cuddled up next to me with a smile on her face. Akali was laying down on the other side of Vi, her legs tangled with mine, and she too had a contented look on her face.

And then there was Kai-Sia at the foot of the bed, who had just tiptoed over to kiss each girl on their foreheads before returning to her spot by the nightstand and picking up an old book that must have been hers that she started reading again.

They were all here with me - each girl seemed determined to get some time spent alone with each other while they could before we reached our destination tomorrow evening - and it made me happy that they all wanted to spend time with me alone because it meant they liked me a lot. And it also made me happy because I liked each one of them more than any of the other girls that have been with us so far and being able to spend time with them was making this journey very enjoyable for me.

But then that small part of my brain flared back into action as it reminded me that while I may like them all dearly as friends...I only loved one of them as a lover. And even though I didn’t mind sharing myself with these girls...the thought of actually loving more than one person at once...it felt wrong somehow.

While trying to figure out how things got this way...and how I ended up having feelings for five girls at once...my eyes trailed down towards my ring finger where I expected to see a wedding ring sitting there proudly...but saw nothing but empty space instead.

“What happened?” The words escaped my lips without realizing it until Ashe answered behind me.