Silent Journey to Identity

It was my 18th birthday, and I couldn't have been more excited. I'd always had a thing for older women, and that year I was finally old enough to go out and party with them.

I went to the mall to get a gift for my sister and aunt. My aunt was a bit younger than my mom, but she'd always treated me like her own son.

At first, it seemed like any other trip to the mall. I browsed through the shops, walked around a little, and then made my way to the food court.

But as I got closer, my heart started beating faster. I could feel sweat trickling down my back and my palms were getting clammy as I approached the bathroom. My diaper pinched tightly against my buttcheeks as my bladder began filling up with warm piss. It was almost unbearable, but it was nothing new to me.

I'd been wearing diapers for the last month or so to deal with an occasional bedwetting problem. While it had taken some getting used to, it wasn't really that bad. Sure, when you wake up in the morning after having wet yourself during your sleep there's a bit of shame involved, but at least you don't have to worry about waking up with a puddle on your bed anymore! Not to mention the fact that you can wear whatever underwear you want without being afraid of leaks...

I had stopped wearing diapers during the daytime after just a couple days, but at night they were essential. Whilst wearing them overnight and having wet myself during sleep hadn't bothered me too much initially, it became increasingly embarrassing when I woke up in public with one on underneath my clothes. Thankfully most of the time it happened when I was alone at home or at school; once it even happened while I was on a date with a girl! That was pretty awkward, but luckily we broke up two weeks later so nobody found out why she dumped me!

The day before my birthday though, things started getting weird... After awakening from another bedwetting episode (for which I *had* been wearing a diaper), I went pee-pee in the toilet and took off my damp night diaper - only to find that there was no pee inside! Just plain ol' clean padding! For some reason, my body has been creating fake pee in order to fill up and wet itself during sleep! This was very puzzling for me: Why would my body do this? Did it think that somehow this would be good for it? Was this some kind of strange defense mechanism? Or maybe just some bizarre form of self punishment? Whatever the case may be, this meant that if I wanted to wear diapers while going out clubbing tonight (an activity where not wearing a diaper is simply not an option), I'd need to stock up on more supplies - preferably before going into work tomorrow morning...

The next day Thursday rolled around and there was no way around buying more diapers. The only place in town that sold them unfortunately closed early on Thursday nights due to low demand (which is surprising since just about everyone needs diapers!). So if I wanted them before leaving for work tomorrow morning (when they'd be closed), I'd have to buy them now... And thus began what would be the most terrifying hour of my young life!

My hands shook as I held onto the door handle with both hands. Suddenly the door opened by itself and all eyes were on me as people stared in shock at what they saw: Me standing there holding onto both sides of the door frame for dear life with tears streaming down my face and urine beginning streaming down into my shoes as well as onto the floor! The room filled with laughter as someone shouted "Looks like somebody needs diapers!"

My heart sank as every single person turned their heads towards me and began laughing hysterically at what they saw: A diapered teen boy standing in the doorway of their bathroom stall shitting himself right there in front of everyone! The laughter grew louder until eventually everyone's attention returned back to what they were doing before this incident occurred - leaving me there still trying desperately not to shit myself on display for everyone! My face grew redder by the second until finally after what felt like an eternity everything stopped moving within me... Only then did people begin looking back towards me again - some now looking worriedly confused while others looked quite pleased with themselves as they laughed knowingly...

I slowly pulled myself off of the doorframe slowly as everyone watched intently wondering what kind of damage I might cause next... But thankfully once outside of sight behind one of those huge wall partitions that separate each individual bathroom stall stood just feet away from one of *those* stained urinal cakes which had yet another set of feet sitting upon top staring straight back at me through those black shoe soles pointing upwards from atop that cake - which explained why everyone was looking at me so intently while keeping their distance! Somehow he knew exactly how much trouble he had caused by standing there right now causing trouble for others who needed relief badly... He must've known his actions were wrong because he quickly got up off of that cake and ran out of sight behind his wall partition just seconds before I reached him - leaving behind his muddy shoe prints beneath those godforsaken urinal cakes for all to see!

I took off running after him out into the main corridor filled with shoppers who all stared at me as if I were crazy - which made sense considering how unusual it is seeing someone run into a mall bathroom without actually needing to use it! It didn't take long before security caught up with me either; taking hold of both arms tightly between them just outside of Target's toy department where they forced me down onto the hard tile floor face-first - not caring about anything else besides catching this guy who's been causing trouble ever since he first started putting those damn shoes onto those damn urinal cakes last week! They didn't let go until just minutes later when they finally caught him by surprise while he hid behind one such cake situated right against one side wall facing outward towards another such wall beside him in one such corner shopping area where he couldn't run off anywhere else... And thus ended what must've been one heckuva day for security (*especially* their youngest member!) who never expected their job duties would involve tracking down such an oddball culprit dressed head-to-toe in full adult diapers peaking out from behind such walls all throughout this mall - seemingly without any real intent or purpose other than causing trouble wherever possible!