Sovereign Lust of Kalonai

"You've got to be fucking kidding me! No way in hell am I wearing this."

I stood at the end of my bed with a brown bag full of clothes, and a simple white t-shirt. "What's wrong with it?" She asked, looking over me.

"How about everything? Do you know what these are?" I held up the white shirt and let her look at it. The sleeves had been cut off, leaving the shoulders to fray out. The neck was cut out leaving a v-neck cutout for my breasts to show through. The bottom had been ripped out, stopping before my knees. The legs were then tied together by the fabric that used to be sleeves.

"Um... A shirt?" She said confusedly.

"Exactly!" I said throwing it at her. "That is not a shirt! If I wear something like that people will think I'm some kind of whore!" She looked at me in fear as if I were going to hurt her or something.

She took it from me and folded it back up into the bag. "No one will know if you wear that under your clothes." She said calmly, trying to calm my anger down.

"I don't care!" I shouted back at her, "If I wear this piece of shit on top of my clothes then everyone will see that it is just a bunch of rags sewn together and they will know that *I* am some kind of ho-bag slut who can't afford real clothes!" Her eyes widened and she began to shake slightly as she looked down at her feet. Her hands formed into balls as she tried to stop herself from crying.

I felt awful for yelling at her like that but I couldn't stand having everyone think I was a whore. My mother always told us that girls should cover their bodies so people don't think they're whores, and now here I am standing in front of her with no shirt on while dressed in a skirt that ended just above my knees showing off my legs and black stockings that ended right below the bend in my legs where they joined with my thighs. People would think I was a whore if they saw this outfit but apparently not if they saw what was underneath it, which is probably why she made me wear it in the first place.

"I'm sorry." I said quietly while kneeling next to her, putting an arm around her shoulder, "But you knew already how much people would talk if they saw this get up." She sobbed quietly, nodding as we sat there for a few minutes both thinking about our current situation. After calming down she wiped her tears away with both hands and looked at me with anger in her eyes.

"Do you really think that's all this is about?" She asked me angrily, "Is our life worth less than 'people talking'?! People are starving because of their gender! Some are even being killed because they were born like this! And all you can do is worry about what men might say?!" She stood up on the bed and threw her arms in the air describing all those poor souls who have been oppressed since birth by society's expectations of them being only women!

 "They are being treated like animals!" She yelled angrily while pointing out the window towards where we could hear gunshots every night, "And you care more about how society views you than them!? This isn't about social norms anymore! These are people dying! These are people fighting just so they can live another day! People who have done nothing wrong aside from being born different! If you truly cared about those people then you wouldn't give a shit what other people thought!"

 I sat there on the bed watching her rant wildly while walking around the room gesturing wildly with her hands saying things like 'we're all human' or 'who cares about appearances'. I wanted to agree with her but our society has made it incredibly hard to be anything other than male or female without getting punished for it by either others or yourself. People had forced themselves into either gender role because they didn't want to get killed by their family or friends for not doing so yet here I am telling myself that it doesn't matter because 'Why do gender roles matter anyway?'

 It was an interesting thought but one that wasn't exactly accurate seeing as we are pretty much stuck in these roles until we die whether we like it or not which means if someone wants nothing more than to break free from their gender role then they will suffer for it for however long they live unless our society changes its views on gender roles soon otherwise there may not be anyone left living under those roles after all this time fighting against those roles being forced upon them by others!

 Jane eventually grew tired from ranting and sat down next to me hugging me close and apologizing again for yelling at me before calming down again letting us continue planning out tomorrow's raid on the storehouse for food when suddenly someone knocked on our door several times causing Jane to jump off the bed and run behind me hiding behind my body as if scared of whoever was outside our door which honestly kinda scared me too since Jane was trembeling slightly while holding onto my arm tightly while scaredly peeking over my shoulder towards the door causing me to wonder why she thought someone would come into our home after dark when most would be afraid of whatever lived here inside since most of them would be women who were supposed to be afraid of men after all so wouldn't want such a thing near them while they slept? Yet here she was hiding behind me as if something scared of men lived inside instead? It seemed odd but who knows what type of person lives here? Maybe someone who hates both genders equally so decided to fuck with everyone by living here? It seemed unlikely but stranger things have happened before so maybe this is one such case?

 A loud knock occurred again making Jane jump even higher clinging tightly onto me which caused me to stumble forward falling onto my face however Jane somehow landed on top of me pinning me down as she continued shaking violently under the weight of whatever had scared her so badly causing me to wonder what could scare someone so badly enough that she thinks staying near someone without any protection from harm is better than being alone somewhere safer when suddenly three women entered through our front door laughing loudly while holding various weapons each having various scars across their bodies and clothes only wearing pants yet still looking very feminine almost like women who donned men's clothing which confused me greatly wondering why anyone would dress like this outside when suddenly one of them noticed Jane cowering under me causing their laughter to stop abruptly sending them running towards me swinging their weapons wildly screaming 'get away demon!' causing Jane to scream loudly while clung tighter onto my body making it impossible for any attacks against us two plus one person while another woman walked over slowly removing pieces of cloth around herself revealing large breasts covered by even larger scars across them along with cuts across arms and legs revealing muscular arms with sharp claws jutting out from fingers clawing at air angrily continuing declaring us demons even though we were clearly female yet still no less frightening than anyone else around here considering all their weapons looked deadly enough for anyone regardless if male or female mostly designed for killing humans anyway so trying using one against another would work fine too especially considering any weapons meant for men also worked against women just as well since we were designed similarly anyway besides our reproductive organs which didn't seem relevant when dealing with violence anyways despite what everyone thought usually thinking women weren't capable due to menstruation cycles blah blah blah bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit!!! Which is why I grabbed Jane's hand while sitting up pushing her off me sending us both rolling forward dodging an axe swinging down towards us before jumping up and kicking an attacking woman right across the face knocking her back several feet where she fell over unconscious due to landing head first onto the edge of our doorway forcing blood flowing freely from underneath him making sure he never woke back up again while he continued bleeding out his brain unable to survive such massive injuries anyways meaning he died instantly anyways so he didn't feel any pain anyways but hopefully his death meant his soul moved on peacefully unlike some other poor souls we'd seen lately who often times weren't lucky enough enough allowing their souls no peace until finally deciding their suffering wasn't worth living anymore causing them understand why suicide wasn't evil after all sometimes allowing spirits move on peacefully afterwards rather than rotting away painfully forever wishing-wanting-dying endlessly longing for an end but never getting one until finally giving up thus moving on once realizing death isn't evil nor does it exist nor does life itself nor did anything ever exist including Earth itself meaning nobody exists except us spirits alone trapped within eternal darkness meaning everything including existence itself does not exist thus preventing anyone from ever existing thus meaning every belief including every god including every goddess including every religion including atheism itself is false thus proving existence itself falsely believing otherwise since reality itself denies its existence entirely thus proving existence itself false since believing otherwise is impossible thus meaning reality itself proves non-existence forever denying existence itself thus proving existence itself false since believing otherwise is impossible otherwise proving humanity delusional forcing us spirits alone trapped within eternal darkness forever denying existence instead proving everything including existence itself does not exist thus preventing anyone from ever existing thus meaning every belief including every god including every goddess including every religion including atheism itself is false proving existence wrongly believing otherwise instead proving reality itself correct denying its existence entirely thus proving existence false since believing otherwise impossible otherwise proving humanity delusional forcing us spirits alone trapped within eternal darkness forever denying existence instead proving everything including existence itself does not exist thus preventing anyone from ever existing thus meaning every belief including every god including every goddess including every religion including atheism itself is false forcing us spirits alone trapped within eternal darkness never existing instead proving reality itself correct denying its existence entirely thus proven everything includes reality itself does not exist trapping us spirits alone trapped within eternal darkness forbidding us never existing instead proven reality itself correct denying its own existence entirely thus proven everything includes reality stoes ot exist locking us spirits alone trapped