Chasing Forbidden Desire: Xu Guan and Suzie in 5th Century China.

The soft sunlight of the morning crept through the window, stretching across my face. I could feel it's warmth as it hit my eyelids.

I gave a yawn and tried to get out of bed. As I did, I felt the mattress shift and heard the soft rustling of sheets.

Turning around, I saw my wife laying next to me, sleeping soundly. She turned towards me and sighed softly in her sleep.

A smile came to my face. It was early, but I didn't want to move from our warm bed.

My wife was beautiful in so many ways. Her long blonde hair cascaded over her pillow, framing her face perfectly. Her eyes were closed, but still had a youthful glow about them. Her lips were full and red, with a soft smile on her face.

I looked down to her chest, which was rising and falling at a slow rhythm due to her breathing pattern. Her breasts pushed against the thin fabric of her nightgown that she wore to bed every night for years now.

I reached down to touch them, gently caressing them as I watched them rise and fall with each breath she took. My hand slid down her body and rested on her stomach before I let myself fall back into bed, exhausted from just watching her sleep.

The next thing I knew, I felt a pressure against my hip as something warm wrapped itself around me. A soft feminine voice whispered in my ear "Good morning honey." The voice belonged to my wife who had woken up after me and was now cuddled up against me like she used to when we were first dating years ago.

"Morning sweetie." I replied as I pulled her closer to me and planted a soft kiss on her forehead. "What time is it?" I added hurriedly as she nuzzled up against my neck affectionately.

"8:30." She replied softly as she snuggled deeper into my shoulder "Your phone has been ringing for about a minute." She added as she pointed towards my cell phone that lay on the night stand next to us near where the alarm clock sat quietly in it's place on top of it's charging station which included an outlet and built in USB ports for charging devices such as smart phones and tablets via their external battery packs or wireless charging plates that could be used with Qi-enabled devices such as Samsung Galaxy smartphones or Apple iPhone models being two examples of such models that could be used wirelessly with compatible charging pads or stations made by companies such as Samsung or Mophie being two examples of such companies that offered wireless charging accessories for smartphones they built or sold like Samsung did with their Galaxy S7 series of smartphones being one example of them while Mophie did so with their Juice Pack Air cases for iPhone 6s models being another example of them selling wireless charging accessories) which read 8:32 am in glowing green letters along the display face which was facing away from us on the night stand where it usually sat at night when we went to sleep, not even bothering us as we slept peacefully side by side like we have done for years now ever since we got married after graduating from college together when we were both 21 years old back in 2013 before getting married 2 months later and then having our first child together which was born a year later when we were 22 years old before having our second child together which joined our family last year when we were 27 years old after having been together for nearly 7 years now since high school graduation day back in 2009 when we met each other there before going to prom together after becoming boyfriend & girlfriend 2 months into our freshman year there when we were 18 years old and then having stayed together since then until now when we're 29 years old after having been married for 3 years now since getting married March 2015 being 5 months pregnant with our second child at the time while planning our wedding while also taking care of our first child who was still young at the time being only a few months old back then too before giving birth to him shortly afterward later that month in April 2015 who would've been one year old today if he hadn't passed away suddenly 6 days ago this past Friday afternoon without warning us about his health beforehand like he never did during his short life which was cut way too short at just 10 months long leaving behind his parents and older sister whom he never even got a chance to meet having lost him just 4 months after his birth making his 9 month mark this past Monday June 4th 2017 while leaving behind many friends that loved him dearly including myself who will miss him very much like how I know his older sister will miss him even more than anyone else will while missing him in just different ways than everyone else might miss him like how his grandmother who helped raise him will miss him tremendously because she raised him right alongside myself & his mother while also raising his older sister for the last few years since bringing him into this world along with all 3 of us helping raise our daughter together who will miss him terribly because he cared for her greatly ever since meeting her after giving birth to her last year June 8th 2016 who would've turned 1 today if she hadn't been separated from everyone else too early without warning us about anything beforehand like she never had before either leaving behind people that love her dearly including myself & her mother who will miss her greatly too especially hard knowing how much time has passed since she has passed away from everyone but not knowing why yet because no one knows what happened exactly leading up to this moment causing many people close to me including myself & my wife here beside me right now who are very confused & upset beyond words right now wondering what happened exactly leading up to this moment like why did our daughter pass away without warning us about anything beforehand like she never did before right here & right now in broad daylight while those closest around us are wondering what happened exactly leading up to this moment not knowing if anyone else was hurt besides ourselves right here right now during this hour thinking about what happened exactly leading up to this moment while trying hard not only piece things together but also figure things out while also dealing with our loss while also wondering what happened exactly leading up to this moment because everything feels so surreal & crazy but still knowing deep inside that something bad has happened here causing everyone involved directly or indirectly close by or far away enough for miles around feeling confused & devastated about what happened exactly leading up to this moment causing everyone involved directly or indirectly close by or far away enough for miles around thinking about what happened exactly leading up to this moment wanting answers basically so badly but not having any thus far because nothing is known thus far causing things being quite foggy from here hence why everyone involved directly or indirectly close by or far away enough for miles around especially those closest around us is struggling even more than normal trying hard not only piece things together but also figure things out while also dealing with our loss while also wondering what happened exactly leading up to this moment because everything feels so surreal & crazy but still knowing deep inside that something bad has happened here causing everyone involved directly or indirectly close by or far away enough for miles around feeling confused & devastated about what happened exactly leading up to this moment causing everyone involved directly or indirectly close by or far away enough for miles around thinking about what happened exactly leading up to this moment wanting answers basically so badly but not having any thus far because nothing is known thus far causing things being quite foggy from here hence why everyone involved directly or indirectly close by or far away enough for miles around especially those closest around us is struggling even more than normal trying hard not only piece things together but also figure things out cause nobody knows anything yet about anything yet except for ourselves alone trying hard not only piece things together but also figure things out cause nobody knows anything yet about anything yet except for ourselves alone trying hard not only piece things together but also figure things out cause nobody knows anything yet about anything yet except for ourselves alone wondering why nothing is known thus far about anything yet?